I'm an island ...uncharted
and lost in a sea of doubt...
I'm a monolith in a desert of indecision...
standing...exposed...
no secrets...anchored
in the bedrock of my reality...I stand.
Who I am...what I am...how I am...
was built...and forged by pain...
by desire...by happiness...anguish
and despair.
In my life I've planted
and tasted the fruit of bitter harvests...
given and been given unconditional love...
I've hurt...I've lusted...hungered for food
and for a human touch...
wept in ecstacy and anger...
tasted tears of sweetness and hard lessons...
I've contemplated the darkness of self ending...
felt the joy of new life and understanding...
heard that still small voice in night...
and answered.
I've celebrated the glory of sunrises...
the beautiful sadness of sunsets...
been cast down and brought up...
broken and rebuilt...
I've been measured as a man and found wanting
overcome my faults and failed miserbly...
I've cried in my mother's arms
and soothed the fears of my child.
dreamed and watched those dreams
turn to ashes in the grip of my refusal
to seek other paths...
and still I stand...the soul of me...
the whole of me...still.
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