This Morning (A declaration of freedom from a fool)

I woke up this mornin' and
decided not to be your
victim anymore,

I decided not to play a role,
or take part in your twisted
games,

No longer will I be a trick or
a treat, subject to the smooth
lies that have turned the sweet
bloom of my unconditional love
to bitter fruit indeed.

That’s when I realized that the relief
I felt was the removal of
you as a pain in my ass,

popped like a boil, now
exposed to fresh air and
beginning to heal,

my sight and mind no longer
obscured by the steam of
your hot lies and the ache
of desire I felt in my loins
each time you touched me.

You see, I no longer cry at night,
and blame myself for your shortcomings,
or for the break that became a chasm,
as you cast my love adrift on
an ocean of blame, while I, guided
by the light of God,

have my feet set again on firm ground and
not the sinking sand of my life with
you.

I'm no longer your victim,
a fool for false love, or a player
in your game,

I am someone who has
regained self and self esteem,

Someone whole again.


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