Time…again

I know again the feeling of having given,
myself...of having shown my worth, as
both person and partner.

know again the feeling of knowing
that no matter what I do or have
done,

the time has come to move on


I've had to turn away,
to hide my tears,

not understood why ,
felt as if my insides were
ripped from within

struggled not to cry out
from the hurt... deep,

the pain...hot and alive,
cold and numbing
all at once.

I've come again to the crossroad,
where forward was the only way,

the place where going back would mean
pining hope on hopelessness,

where I would reap again the bitter reward
of failure, misunderstanding,
and cold regret.

I 've looked back,
felt the pull of false promises
and false hopes, the need to try again,

turned...  walked away... all the while
praying to God that He heals
and leaves me capable
of love again.


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